Mortality...

Daily I am reminded how fragile life is... But when it dawns on me how many of my peers have passed since highschool, it kinda hits me...

I'm almost 30. 4 months.

I always thought it wouldn't matter how old I was, and I still shrug and "pwah" and play if off like it's no big deal and I don't care.

I do care.

I'll be 30 and unhealthy. I'm currently overweight and feel like my body is falling apart. I am at high risk for heart disease (the #1 killer of American's, I might add), diebetes, stroke... I want to see 60! I want to be healthy and active for my children!

New Years resolution you say? Not at all... I need a LIFE resolution. Need to get the hubby on board so we can teach our children a healthier way of life.

Already started hitting the gym. 30 min on the bike for starters - it's not much but I need to start out slow to maintain joint stability. Not an excuse, fact. I've been reading the Low GI cookbook (and reading it to D to get him on board too). I've been making sure Gwen has healthy snacks to choose from and no crap.

I just feel so defeated that I let myself go this long and this far.

Not happy.

M