I don't even know where to begin... I really have been in such a grumpy funk for the past couple weeks. I just can't put my finger on where it's stemming from.
Fear of success? Fear of failure?
I want to get back into massage. I NEED to start doing something to make myself feel more in control, more connected to the people and world around me. I want to accomplish things on a grand scale... but that is nuts! I have a sink full of dishes, a room full of laundry, enough dog hair in the corners to create another 70 lb dog... It is unrealistic for me to want to take on and fix the world when I can't even handle keeping my own house clean. :/ Which is also kind of disappointing.
I don't know. I'm rambling and not really saying much of anything. Maybe thats because I don't even know what to say at this point. :(
Blah.
I have been feeling better this week though. I just made the decision one morning to stop being so hard on myself and just take things a day at a time. So far, so good.
169. Blah. Diet pills round 2?
